Monday, December 13, 2010

It's the end of the world as we know it

... Or at least the end of the year. As I get older, time moves at an alarmingly fast pace. I've learned quite a bit this past year: I've had to adapt to new surroundings, a new schedule, the demands of university, how to organize my time (and trust me, I'm still learning), and to not take my health for granted. Now I can take what I've learned and apply it to the upcoming year. All in all things are looking up.

I feel about 3/4 of the way back to my original lung capacity. It's to the point where I don't notice myself becoming short of breath doing everyday activities. Now I have to work on getting my muscles back into shape: I did a couple inside crescent spinning outside inside kicks on each leg and could barely get out of bed the next day. Honestly, I didn't fully understand how beneficial kung fu is for my body until I had to stop training.

My INR is now too low at 1.5 on the 6mg for some reason or another. So I'm up to 6.5 mg daily and still have to get blood taken every week. I'm almost at my breaking point with the blood work. Never have I been a squeamish person; on the contrary I think that stuff is neat. So while I was in the hospital I had blood drawn 4 or 5 times. Not a problem. I gave myself subcutaneous injections twice a day for 3 weeks. Not a problem either. While first starting warfarin I had my blood taken every 3 days for about two weeks. It became progressively more difficult for the techs to find a vein and successfully obtain a sample. This is definitely NOT something that gets easier the more you do it. I've almost passed out 3 times, and they usually need to poke and dig around at least 4 times to find a decent vein. It is a real confidence killer, especially when I consider myself fairly resilient and leave the lab almost in tears.

Other than the warfarin being temperamental, I'm feeling well. And about time too. Expect another blog from me in the next couple of days.

Sihing Karissa Martin
Silent River Kung Fu
Stony Plain, AB

Saturday, November 20, 2010

All it takes is a little change

I will start off with the usual spiel about my health. INR jumped to 3.4 this week, so I'm down 1/2 a mg of warfarin. I guess that would explain the huge bruise I recieved from my friend merely holding my leg in order to tickle my foot. So I have to take it easy until the INR is at least below 3 (if you don't remember what INR is it's a ratio of how long my blood takes to clot compared to a normal person.) Good news is that I only need blood taken every week instead of every 3 days! The techs were having to poke me up to 3 times in order to find even a decent vein, and it was starting to hurt.

The cold, dry air is giving me chest and back pain at nights. I'm going to condition my poor lungs by going for a walk every day. So far the pain is subsiding. As for my leg pain and numbness I've noticed an improvement in the last week. Things seem to be looking up! The only upsetting incident in the past week or so was a panic attack in a public place. I think it was started by the chest pain I was having due to the weather. Fortunately I had it under control after 10 minutes by stimulating the pressure point between the thumb and index finger. I know it works but previously I've only used it for minor things like headaches, and I was blown away by how effective it is.

I've since started joining class again, and although I couldn't do much it felt nice to be apart of the atmosphere that only training with your peers can produce. It really does feel like I have a second family there.

One last thing. Do you remember Sifu Brinker saying that you can't expect a different result by doing things exactly the same as before? Well, I'm here to quantify that statement with a "real world" example. Last semester I failed a linear algebra course. This semester I had to take it again. After failing the first few assignments, I came to the realization that I may be approaching it the wrong way. After looking at how I studied this course versus a course that I succeeded in, I decided to change how I studied it. I began to created notes with the same format as my biology ones, which is something I have never done with math before. Behold!! Math is no longer an abstract concept that makes me weep tears of frustration. It's just a language that describes daily life. Needless to say I'm doing SO much better in the course and actually enjoying it. Honestly, my outlook on life has changed. We all have to ability to accomplish what we want and to do it well. Sometimes it just takes a little change on our part. I feel like I can do ANYTHING now, including get through this nasty PE!

Karissa Martin
Silent River Kung Fu
Stony Plain, AB

Sunday, November 14, 2010

Next week I'll be "re-joining" class. Re-joining as in at least being on the other side of the bench. I never thought that having to sit and watch everyone would be such a soul-draining experience. At times I wanted to jump that little wall and start throwing thrust kicks, but in my heart I knew I wouldn't even be able to make it over the wall. I just need to start small, and I know that just being surrounded by everyone's energy will make a big difference in my recovery.

On another note, I'm terrified of having another PE. Every day I think "Is this going to be the day that it happens again?". It is mentally draining and I'm now having panic attacks because of the anxiety. For the first time in my life deep breathing does not seem to help. Sifu Brinker reminded me of the pressure point between the thumb and index finger. Does anyone have other suggestions? I'm tempted to ask my doctor for Ativan but I know I should try alternate methods first.

Sihing Karissa Martin
Silent River Kung Fu
Stony Plain, AB

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Medicine, art and design.

When people ask me what my career goal is I reply "a medical illustrator", only to receive a confused look. It's funny how we as humans categorize to the point where we can become narrow-minded. For example, most people will label themselves as a "science" or "arts" or "business" oriented person. I don't think of my interests and abilities in black and white, as a "science" or "art" oriented. Apparently to some, these lines do not cross. This is merely the accumulation of my thoughts and observations so if you think it's total bullocks please prove me wrong.

Maybe that's why a few people who asked what a medical illustrator seemed surprised that such a job actually existed. Or it's just not a well publicized career and a fairly new profession.

Good thing I found a blog that is dedicated to not only medical illustration, but the coverage of human anatomy in popular art and culture! It just makes me glad I'm not the only person who finds anatomy incredibly beautiful.

Sreet Anatomy was created to showcase the link between science and art in a way that is both practical and beautiful. I know there's artists out there in our kung fu family, so if you are one please check it out, because I think it's so darn neat. I'm not going to post a link because the content isn't appropriate for all ages.

Perhaps later this week I will post some of my artwork, seeing as adding to my portfolio is one of my UBBT requirements.

Peace.

Sihing Karissa Martin
Silent River Kung Fu
Stony Plain, AB


Monday, November 1, 2010

Whew!

I just got back from the emergency room. My heart started to race and I became so anxious that it didn't go back down. Blood work was done to check for heart strain and damage. Nothing. Apparently I just need to take a chill pill.

At least I know my ticker is fine :)

Sihing Karissa Martin
Silent River Kung Fu
Stony Plain, AB

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Happy Halloween!

I can't wait to carve pumpkins and hand out candy to the kids tomorrow! I enjoy Halloween immensely. It's nice to be able to look like whomever (or whatever) you want for at least one night.

Besides starting warfarin on Monday, not much has changed with me condition-wise. I had the time my blood takes to clot (INR) taken on Thursday and it's not within therapeutic range yet. Mine is at 1.3 and therapeutic is between 2-3 (normal is around 1). I'm on 6mg of warfarin and 0.80ml of heparin until the INR is over 2 and then I'll be taken off heparin. I've been having intermittent chest pain and heart palpitations, but I freak out at every little leg twinge so I think I'm bringing it upon myself.

This morning I woke up with what feels like a muscle cramp on the back of my thigh that's pretty mild. It very well could be another clot but there's nothing more that be done about it now that I'm on blood thinners, so I'm trying not to worry but it's difficult.

I hope everyone has a fantastic Halloween night!

Sihing Karissa Martin
Silent River Kung Fu
Stony Plain, AB

Monday, October 25, 2010

Finally! Some direction!

My appointment with the hematologist went very well. The blood tests so far have turned up normal, but I still have to get the blood drawn for a lupus anticoagulation test. I'm not in the clear just yet for any diseases, but it looks like I'll be on anticoagulants for only a year.

At the moment the only cause of my blood clot is oral contraceptive use. The chances of developing a blood clot while on the pill is very small. Here is a article on thromboembolism and oral contraceptive use (it's a bit of a tough read if you're not into statistics but it's not too bad):http://www.medscape.com/viewarticle/421027_4

I also received the results of the V/Q scan and ultrasound of my leg. According to the report my right lung was almost completely blocked, as well as having multiple large clots in my left. I am basically running on a quarter of the lung capacity I usually have... I'm surprised that I don't have any chest pain. Or I just have a crazy pain tolerance. On a good note, there is no evidence of acute or chronic clots in my leg and all veins look normal. Yay!

Today I'm going to attempt a few push ups and sits ups just to see how my body reacts to them. Wish me luck!

Sihing Karissa Martin
Silent River Kung Fu
Stony Plain, AB

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Many thank you's and a little medical speak.

First of all, I want to say thank you to those of you who took the time to read about my experience and to say some kind words. Not only do you now know what the deal is with me but hopefully you learned something too. Thanks again.

Second, I'm going to list off the symptoms I had as they are kind of scattered throughout my last post. Remember that these were my specific symptoms and sometimes people don't have any symptoms at all.

Symptoms of a blood clot (deep vein thrombosis):

-localized pain (in my case in my left hip) that made walking painful. I would describe it as being similar to when you pull a muscle, expect that the pain doesn't subside over time.
-mild swelling in my thigh and feet
-my whole leg felt heavy and just funny in general

Besides the pain, my other symptoms were very general and mild. I honestly thought I had just pulled something while working out at the gym. It was when the pain didn't improve after a week that I had considered going to a doctor, but then I had the pulmonary embolism that day. Go figure.

Symptoms of pulmonary embolism:

-sudden cramp of my entire leg. It was unlike any other cramp I have had before as it encompassed my WHOLE leg. Very odd feeling.
-almost immediate shortness of breath and pleuritic chest and upper back pain (pain that worsens when taking a deep breath.)
-weakness
-anxiety
-tachycardia (fast pulse). This is what I found most disturbing. My normal resting pulse rate is around 60 bpm. My heart rate during and for around 5 days after the embolism was 140 bpm, sometimes going up to 160.
-abnormal heart beat

Remember that pulmonary embolism is a complication of deep vein thrombosis, so it doesn't occur without the presence of a clot. Also remember that these are the symptoms that I had, and others may present with different ones, though mine are pretty much textbook.

If you experience any of these symptoms, call an ambulance. Most people who do die of pulmonary embolism do so within the first hour, and a quick diagnosis cuts down the mortality rate substantially.

I want to stress that my case is very unusual. In fact, my family doctor has never seen a pulmonary embolism in a 19 year old in his 10 years of practice. Blood clots are way more likely to happen to elderly people who are sedentary, after surgery and to people with genetic predispositions to blood clots. There is a good chance that I have a genetic clotting disorder but that's another post altogether.

I will be meeting with a hematologist tomorrow morning so expect a new post tomorrow.

See how I didn't use Wikipedia? I'm a good university student.

Sihing Karissa Martin
Silent River Kung Fu
Stony Plain, AB




Friday, October 22, 2010

It's been an interesting few weeks...

Two weeks ago I suffered a potentially life-threatening condition called a pulmonary embolism. It is a complication of a condition called deep vein thrombosis in which a blood clot forms in the large veins of the legs or pelvis. When a part of the clot breaks off, it travels to the pulmonary artery and blocks blood flow to the lung(s). This puts great strain on the heart as it's trying to pump blood through narrowed passages while not receiving adequate oxygen itself.

The week before it happened I had moderate pain in my left hip that spread down to the back of my knee that made walking difficult. Since it felt like muscle pain I thought that I'd wait it out and never suspected anything serious. By the day before my embolism I noticed some very mild swelling and redness on my thigh and foot. Again, it was mild but I was becoming slightly concerned that the pain was not improving.

While I was walking back from class I felt my whole left leg tighten and cramp up. About 15 seconds later the cramp let up and I immediately began hyperventilating. My heart began to beat fast and abnormally. I began to feel an sense of impending doom that really, really frightened me. I made it to a chair to sit down as I began to feel weak and lightheaded. It took me a couple minutes to realize that this was not going to go away, so I called my mom. In retrospect, I should have just called 911 but I was panicking and couldn't really think straight.

While waiting for my mom to arrive to take me to the hospital, I began to calm down a little. About 2 hours later we arrive at the University hospital. I could barely walk 20 feet without having to sit down. At the emergency triage, the nurse took a look at my vitals and immediately took me to get checked out. The nurses hooked me up to an EKG and a machine that monitors heart rate and respiration. The machine showed a heart rate of 140 b/m, which is more than double the normal rate of someone my age. A medical student asked me a battery of questions, and then I was taken to be given a chest x-ray. Afterwards I was admitted to the emergency department.

There the resident asked me more questions about my symptoms and family history. She suspected a pulmonary embolism but needed a V/Q scan (ventillation/perfusion scan) to be sure. (I thought the idea of inhaling radioactive isotopes and having gamma rays emitted from my lungs was soooo cool, which cracked the nuclear tech up. Even when I'm sick I don't stop being the nerdy science student.) A ultrasound of my leg was done to check for any clots, which there were none, so either the clot came from somewhere else or the whole thing made its way to my lungs. The V/Q scan showed two large clots in both of my lungs. The nurses started me on anticoagulant injections that will hopefully prevent any new clots from forming.

I was lucky to have been stable enough to be released from the hospital and subsequently be treated as an outpatient. A ton of bloodwork is being done to test for any clotting disorders or autoimmune diseases, as pulmonary embolism is not common in young people. I am going to have to be on anticoagulants for at least 6 months, and if any clotting disorders are found I'll be on them for a lifetime.

Nothing can be done for the clots already in my lungs. They will be reabsorbed by my body in time. How long it will take me to recover, I really don't know. For now being active is really tiring and I become short of breath very easily, which means my training is on hold for a while. How long I'm not sure, as it depends on how I feel in time. Remaining, at least, relatively active during my recovery is important as it will help prevent another clot from forming.

Please be aware that this condition can happen to anyone of any age. I was previously healthy before it happened to me. I want anyone who reads this to be aware of the symptoms of not only pulmonary embolism, but of deep vein thrombosis. When you are injured or sick, try to get moving as soon as possible (within reason) in order to reduce the risk of clots. If you experience any sudden shortness of breath and chest pain, call an ambulance. Don't wait for a ride to the hospital like I did.

If you made it through this post, thanks for reading as I know it's really long. This was mostly just for me as a way to "let go" of that experience and a way to lift a weight off my back. Writing experiences down definately releases any leftover emotions and also allows you reflect on the significance of that experience.

I'm feeling much better than I did last week, so hopefully I'll continue that trend. I will still be hanging around the kwoon during my recovery so I'm not disappearing entirely.

Sihing Karissa Martin
Silent River Kung Fu
Stony Plain, AB
www.silentriverkungfu.com

Tuesday, May 18, 2010

A little dose of summer

Finally! Heat! I'm one of those people who wishes Canada could swap places with Mexico, so I jumped at the chance to spend the day outside. My extremely furry black dog is not as excited about the weather as I am, though.

In other news, I started a food journal in order to help me with my weight loss goals. It's a huge eyeopener as I didn't fully understand what I was eating everyday and how much. So far, it's going well. This makes for a very pleased Karissa.

Karissa Martin
Silent River Kung Fu
Stony Plain, AB
www.silentriverkungfu.com

Sunday, May 16, 2010

This is insane!

This place certainly looks a little dusty...

I know it's been forever since my last post. To be honest, I forgot about all of my UBBT requirements for 3 months/ stopped caring, but coming back to this blog reminded me of how I'm not utilizing an important tool. All I can do down is pick up from where I left off and not give up.

School has been over for about a month now. To my surprise, I survived and feeling pumped for next semester! I learned that I am lacking severely in the category of time management and I can procrastinate like no one's business, but hey, this experience is a learning process. Knowing what I need to change in order to do better makes for a more optimistic view of the years to come. Now I just need to make sure I do what needs to be done instead of talking about doing it!

In other news, I got a new job at the Devon pool. I really lucked out on this one. Great pay, outdoor pool, suntan, and lots of swimming lessons! It will be a different experience teaching outdoors but I'm up for the challenge. Though I must admit that after 4 months of no swimming my front crawl is a little rusty...

Until next time....

Sihing Karissa Martin
Silent River Kung Fu
Stony Plain, AB
www.silentriverkungfu.com


Thursday, February 11, 2010

Wow

I`m feeling incredibly cathartic today. My emotions have been all over the map as I`m feeling a little stressed by midterms, my seemingly endless ill health, and my issue about Kung Fu. Punctuate those emotions with feelings of intense love for my friends and the result is a bittersweet heart. I`m not going to go into great detail, but I am going to elaborate on the Kung Fu.

I`m going to start by saying something that I`m not used to saying: I need help. Kung Fu is not enjoyable anymore. I dread going to class and I have no motivation to practice. My brain is telling me to spare my heart any extra weight and quit it altogether. So I`m going to make my problem to known so I don`t have too do this alone. For the past year and a half I have been going through this alone, and after an emotional discussion with Sifu Brinker I realize that I can`t keep doing this to myself. There is something, somewhere deep inside, that is telling me that I have to go on...

I also want to thank Sihing Leitz for what you said to me a few Friday`s ago when I was freaking out in the lobby. It was incredibly endearing to know that you cared about me. I know you just told me to not to quit but it was touching. Thank you.

Now it`s time for bed... tears always lead to a very restful sleep.

Karissa Martin
Silent River Kung Fu
Stony Plain, AB, Canada
www.silentriverkungfu.com





Thursday, January 21, 2010

That pain... is the sensation of your brain cells firing

... for some that pain is probably not felt as often as it should. I give neurons an A+ and my English instructor an A++++++ in awesome.


Karissa Martin
Silent River Kung Fu
Stony Plain, AB
www.silentriverkungfu.com

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

So tired...

For the past few days I've been incredibly tired, lonely and unmotivated. Perhaps I'm becoming sick, or I'm just not settled into my new routine. I really hope it's the latter. I'm also starting to feel a little homesick, which is funny because I'm not even an hour from home. It's tough to go out and be social and fulfill my 12 conversations requirement when almost all my time is taken up by studying...

It hasn't been a good week so far for my push ups and sit ups, as I'm a couple hundred behind on both. That will have to change.

This is kind of unrelated, but I feel like ranting. Yesterday I had my first biology lab, and it was a little disappointing. It took me 45 minutes trying to calibrate my microscope since I haven't used one in over a year. Blah. I'm a bit of a nerd (I hide it well) whose eyes light up at the thought of dissecting dead things, so this experience was a bit of a downer. The bio lecture is also really hard to take,as the professor can't keep a constant stream of thought. Plus the material is a little dull. It almost makes me want to change my biology major. BUT I'll stick through it, education is never a bad idea and I'll be a better person when it's done.

So, I have a question to ask. What do you guys do to give yourself a boost when you're feeling down? For now though, I'm off to bed...

Karissa Martin
Silent River Kung Fu
Stony Plain, AB
www.silentriverkungfu.com

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

I can't make up interesting, relevent titles

I'm blogging from my new place at Grant MacEwan. I really enjoy university so far. I feel far less socially awkward here than I was in high school. Maybe I'll change my mind about university come midterm time, ha.

One negative aspect of university is that I'm 45 minutes from the kwoon, and can only attend the Sihing class on Fridays and on weekends, but maybe that will make me more motivated once I can attend more classes in the spring.

Sit ups and push ups are proving to be difficult on the concrete floor in a confined space. I'm a little behind on both but I'm going to make them up tomorrow and challenge myself to do as many as I can in one set. Fun times!

I want to touch on one of my personal UBBT requirements and how it is progressing. I made a requirement that I have to engage in 12 meaningful conversations with previously unknown people in order to get over my shyness. 12 doesn't seem like a lot, but trust me, to me it might as well say 1000. Moving in to a different place and sharing it with someone I didn't know was really stressful, but I'm so glad I did it. My roommate is a friendly, intelligent person and we seem to connect on a deeper intellectual level. Even though I was kind of forced into conversing with with person, I feel like I've gained a little confidence in my social abilities and self-esteem. I'm just so excited that I went out of my personal comfort zone and in turn received a positive experience.

Next I'm going to attempt to approach someone and initiate the conversation (and hopefully in not creepy way.)

Karissa Martin
Silent River Kung Fu
Stony Plain, AB, Canada