Wow

I`m feeling incredibly cathartic today. My emotions have been all over the map as I`m feeling a little stressed by midterms, my seemingly endless ill health, and my issue about Kung Fu. Punctuate those emotions with feelings of intense love for my friends and the result is a bittersweet heart. I`m not going to go into great detail, but I am going to elaborate on the Kung Fu.

I`m going to start by saying something that I`m not used to saying: I need help. Kung Fu is not enjoyable anymore. I dread going to class and I have no motivation to practice. My brain is telling me to spare my heart any extra weight and quit it altogether. So I`m going to make my problem to known so I don`t have too do this alone. For the past year and a half I have been going through this alone, and after an emotional discussion with Sifu Brinker I realize that I can`t keep doing this to myself. There is something, somewhere deep inside, that is telling me that I have to go on...

I also want to thank Sihing Leitz for what you said to me a few Friday`s ago when I was freaking out in the lobby. It was incredibly endearing to know that you cared about me. I know you just told me to not to quit but it was touching. Thank you.

Now it`s time for bed... tears always lead to a very restful sleep.

Karissa Martin

Silent River Kung Fu

Stony Plain, AB, Canada

www.silentriverkungfu.com